On being a Nerd.

So the past few weeks can be summarized by the word "blah." It isn't a good thing, it isn't a bad thing, its just kinda mediocre. So maybe that it isnt good makes it innately bad, but I don't think so. Because life isn't always sunny and wonderful. Sometimes you just can't avoid the "blah."

Anyway, the blah-ness of my current disposition ended on Friday. I was a part of the General Education Student Conference, where I got to spend my afternoon presenting a paper I wrote last year in front of a panel of students, faculty, professors, and family members. Until I actually stood up to give my presentation, the conference was a forboding nuisance. It required much preparation and practice and actual work that was not fitting into my already overwhelmed academic schedule. So why would I accept to do? just because?

But then I stood up in front of the room, and realized how utterly excited I was to be able to give this presentation. So there I was, standing in front of all sorts of foriegn faces, wearing quite the professional burnt orange colored corduroy blazer (somewhat resembling either a professor or, as I heard many times later, a thirty year old mother who would send her kid to nature camp), talking about the unappreciation and undervaluing of teenage girls in today's society, and I was just so happy. And then afterwords, the crowd got to fire questions at us and we had to answer with the knowledge we had, and as fast as we could. It may have as well been Christmas morning. The School even hosted a "Gala Banquet" for us that evening. And while the "key note speaker" left much to be desired, I felt like I was thriving within the world of academia. I love it! I love learning, I love sharing what I love, and I love love love scholarly ambitions. Call me a nerd, call me a loser, whatever.

That day, and the fact that my parents were there, that my mom and I may have shed a tear during my presentation, and that I got to go to barnes and noble last night and drink a maple macchiatto, have put me in the greatest mood I've been in in quite some time.

I'm going to go read now...(for fun).