Fall into the Bubble

And I'm back to the displaced bubble of reality some like to call "college." I've been here for about a week now and its been surreal to say the least. I mean college, in and of itself, is somewhat weird and distant to normal life, but over the past few days, having no classes and no agenda, it has been superfluously strange. Fun, but strange. I've spent much time getting the room in order, seeing friends, and smoking some hookah, but I cannot help but feel a bit useless for some reason. I mean there has been so much mindless chatter, so many "So how was Prague?...Oh thats nice...", so many awkward hugs, conversations, and high-fives. I suppose I'm just ready for classes to start and to feel like I am here for a purpose.

And as I embark on this new year, i will pray for discernment. Discernment in my decisions, in balancing my involvement and my need for distance within the Christian community. Discernment in my relationships, how and who to trust, how to love and be loved well, and how to draw those "lines" with people. And I will pray for my heart as I desperately miss many who I love so much, whether they are an ocean away or just a few short hours. And I will pray for patience and peace and grace during this continued time of processing, learning, and just breathing.

And maybe I'll even pray for a work ethic. Because I hear this rumor going around about how you are supposed to study in college....? I know, it's so strange, isn't it? Hm.