my own divorce
I honestly believe that one of the saddest visions I have ever beheld is an image of the great Divorce, whether it be in my own life, or in the lives of those around me. It is simply devastating. The great Divorce is the place where our greatest desires and our greatest failures collide to form a vast chasm, unconquerable by human measures. The great Divorce is the place where you try and you try and you try, and you give so much, and you get nothing in return. The great Divorce is the place where you cannot love because you do not know love or have love. The great Divorce is seeing everything fall apart and being left feeling completely and utterly hopeless. It is loneliness. It is insecurity.
These glimpses of this Great Divorce, are what I think, to be glimpses of what hell would look like. Maybe there will be flames and snakes and skeletons, but that seems a little much and only physical pain. I think it would look alot like earth now, however, devoid of any sort of hope and filled with emotional and mental anguish. It would be you, alone, without any concept of reconciliation, without any idea of love. You would try so hard, and never be satisfied. You would never be fulfilled and you would live life in misery. With every minute passing, you would find yourself deeper and deeper into your isolation. Your desires would have no way of becoming reality. The Great Divorce, my friends.
"And every state of mind, left to itself, every shutting up of the creature within the dungeon of its own mind- is, in the end, Hell. But Heaven is not a state of mind. Heaven is reality itself. All that is fully real is Heavenly. For all that can be shaken will be shaken and only the unshakeable remains." [lewis]
So when your world is shaken loose and everything you know falls apart, what remains determines whether you have conquered the Great Divorce. You will know it. God will either be there, or He won't. He will either be there waiting for you, or not, because you have not let Him hold you. Because the Only Way to cross the Divorce, is to know what it's like to be in love. To be in love with the One who forms Love, defines Love, and bestows Love.
I've seen the Divorce in my life recently and it makes me incredibly distraught. And over the past few weeks, I thought I had been living in the divide, this vast canyon, but I was wrong. So much of what I was holding on to so tight was released from my grip and I thought I had nothing. But the more I look around, the more I realize what is Real is still with me:
The Cross.
Grace.
Love.
Christ.
And when we glimpse the Divorce in our lives, maybe we need to hear the words of Christ say to us, "You are hurting, I know, I am hurting for you. You feel alone, but you are not, I am with you. You feel like you have lost much, but you must understand, I need you to be happy in Me alone. You need to understand deep down that all you need is Me." I heard this the other day. It's not easy to grasp, but I am so assured of it's truth, that to deny it or toss it aside, would be to throw away my very breath.
He is good, I tell you, very very Good.
These glimpses of this Great Divorce, are what I think, to be glimpses of what hell would look like. Maybe there will be flames and snakes and skeletons, but that seems a little much and only physical pain. I think it would look alot like earth now, however, devoid of any sort of hope and filled with emotional and mental anguish. It would be you, alone, without any concept of reconciliation, without any idea of love. You would try so hard, and never be satisfied. You would never be fulfilled and you would live life in misery. With every minute passing, you would find yourself deeper and deeper into your isolation. Your desires would have no way of becoming reality. The Great Divorce, my friends.
"And every state of mind, left to itself, every shutting up of the creature within the dungeon of its own mind- is, in the end, Hell. But Heaven is not a state of mind. Heaven is reality itself. All that is fully real is Heavenly. For all that can be shaken will be shaken and only the unshakeable remains." [lewis]
So when your world is shaken loose and everything you know falls apart, what remains determines whether you have conquered the Great Divorce. You will know it. God will either be there, or He won't. He will either be there waiting for you, or not, because you have not let Him hold you. Because the Only Way to cross the Divorce, is to know what it's like to be in love. To be in love with the One who forms Love, defines Love, and bestows Love.
I've seen the Divorce in my life recently and it makes me incredibly distraught. And over the past few weeks, I thought I had been living in the divide, this vast canyon, but I was wrong. So much of what I was holding on to so tight was released from my grip and I thought I had nothing. But the more I look around, the more I realize what is Real is still with me:
The Cross.
Grace.
Love.
Christ.
And when we glimpse the Divorce in our lives, maybe we need to hear the words of Christ say to us, "You are hurting, I know, I am hurting for you. You feel alone, but you are not, I am with you. You feel like you have lost much, but you must understand, I need you to be happy in Me alone. You need to understand deep down that all you need is Me." I heard this the other day. It's not easy to grasp, but I am so assured of it's truth, that to deny it or toss it aside, would be to throw away my very breath.
He is good, I tell you, very very Good.
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